Abby Says It

Despair

For Catholics, despair is the ultimate sin ~ for by its very nature, despair blames God for all things.

Still, considering where we all are now: how else are we supposed to feel?

Chris Hedges at the Sanctuary of Independent Media, October 16, 2020.

My Kind of Woman

I suppose for all of us -- boy, girl, straight, gay -- there's a moment in adolescence when we see an object, usually somebody we don't know, who crystallizes for us all the lust we have and makes it burning hot. It is a great moment, 'cause from then on we begin to understand what we're attracted to.

For me it happened on a Saturday afternoon in my parents' home, sometime around the age of 11 or 12. I was watching on TV, but not paying much attention to, a colorful 1950s musical called The Band Wagon. About 20 minutes into it, she entered. A Brunette Dream. Eyes like black diamonds, skin clear and golden, goddess-like. Hair jet-black and fine and smooth, glossy as a bird's wing. Long-stemmed, and wearing the sexiest shoes ever created, on the sexiest feet.

I began to pay attention. Toward the end of the movie, there was this:

And my boyhood was gone.

Uptown

Happy October